Frustration!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh.....
like wat da title says, IM DARN FRUST!

love matters? NO
money matters? NO
sex matters? NO
assignment? HELL YEA. -.-

i've been doin my moral assmgt for like...da past 5 hours n da outcome was...
only 3.25 pages done. gosh!
bt of coz..thr's time tat i play fb bt tat doesnt matter. wat reali drive me crazy is da assgmt itself.

G.E.N.D.E.R. D.I.S.C.R.I.M.I.N.A.T.I.O.N.

i've been cracking my head to tink,type,modify, then type then tink,type,modify n da process go on n on n on n on n on like thr's no tml...
til my hand cramp x_x

i feel damn lazy to do~
deep inside, from da core of my heart, i reali feel like giving up. jz hantam wateva points i've gathered.
moral is so boring~
one month plus da teacher has been teaching n yet i duno a single ting he teached.
like da malay saying, "masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri".
yea. tats reali suits me.
i seriously dun und y we nid to study moral.
like its gonna change da way we are.
duh...
bt wat to do...
gov sudah tetapkan jadi kena study lor.. ==

alrite. bec to da assigmt.
da date of submission is tis thursday.
15 pages minimum.
i've set my target to finix at least 'Employment' part.
well,, im half-way now.
so no worries i gueeeess..
as long as lazy-ness wont strike me x_x

okie. gambateh to all A2 chicks n hunks.
gt a moral test on thursday also. sigh...
everytin is so rampant.
god..plz guide me thru. i've seen da light bt thr're so many ways to reach it.
i nid ways to combat my lazy-ness!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!

MORAL SUCKS

Random post

alrite..here i am. blogging agn.
currently in CSC class..suppose to be doin exercise bt wat im doin here r totally legal man. facebook-ing, blogging~~ lalalala~ (: our lengzai lecturer dun even giv a fuck. tats y we like him so muchie (:

shirley, jessie --> go for cinema
thomas, max, ken, yong sen --> dota in ftz
ai ling, wei wei --> go for xxxxxxxxx mission

n..

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i.

a.
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da hardworking one!!!!!! XD
tho im nt doin his hw, at least im nt ditching class. cheers for me (:

okie. lets jz skip tis stuff. its makin me feel bored -.-

single life.
how do we define single life.
y do we choose to hav single life.
when do we choose to hav single life.

someone.

answer me.

n..
wats an open relationship.
y do ppl choose to hav tis one?
izit reali beneficial to them?

gosh...lots of questions running thru my mind rite now.
tis not-suppose-to-be-thought-about stuff hav reali drive me crazy at times.

im lonely.
who doesnt.
i wish to hav a bf.
bt..
fate is owiz nt on my way.
my love life sucks to da max.
currently, i do hav someone in mind
bt..
we never met b4.
shud i go for it?
or hold bec?
am i a coward if i decide nt to move on?
y i do nt hav such courage?
why why tell me why....here da song goes~

well...
tis is life.
we gotta move on bt at times, its best to jz hold bec our feeling on sometin/someone.
human r greedy.
vry greedy.
we wish for lotsa $$$$$$$$$$ when da poor ones dont even hav enuf fud to survive for even one hour.
we always wish for sumtin more.
human needs r foreva cant be satisfied.
tats y..
human r greedy.

i guess....
i jz hold bec da feeling on him.
enjoy da way im livin rite now.
enjoy every sec i hav.
we'll nvr noe wats waiting ahead of us.
i've gt a quote : 'Enjoy now for u may die tml'
*two thumbs up* (((((((((((:

Again~

tis time around,
nt a single tear drops.
nt even feel my heart burning.
nt even emo.
nt even feel like dying.
coz...

i edi guess so tis day will come bt..
nvr expect it to be tis fast.

its ur call...
ur da one who started it n ended it.

i might cry tml, da day after tml, or wheneva i tink of u.

i cant expressed more wat im feeling rite now.

Even if I know that the days when you were by my side,
making my world shine won’t come back again,
and no matter what will happen,
no matter how far I’m lost,
I'll never ever want to forget that my heart had once chosen to love you.
single life u've choose to live on,
may god bless u~

1st day of class

well well well~
ppl said "im thrilled!!!" "cant wait!!" "OMG" "OMFG" etc etc when..
...they unfold a brand new life in college for 1ST SEM ONLY.
when ur in ur nxt sem, tings dun go tis way.
u say OMG n OMFG once u saw da teacher, wif so 'MANY' students in class. ==

eco 1 is my 1st class of da day.
im late (as usual :D), gt in class n........
*does someone has a tissue or sumtin?? coz im swt-ing ==*
jz 5 human beings in tat class!!! (nt including me). gosh.....sien dao.
i knew it!!!! n it makes sense. coz...
tis class jz opened yday so nt much ppl hav enrolled so few students in class so yea. its EXPECTED. lolz

gt my course struc paper n here we go~~~
eco Eco ECo ECO~~
hope i wont fall asleep in class. plz SMACK/WHACK me if i do x_x
eco is reali ultimately effing important to me. so yea.. (:
psst. u gt DUTCH LADY milk if u S/W me. untung rite...kaka.

wat do human do when they're bored???
they TALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! urgh!
so we, as in max, ah boy, ai ling n i talk Talk TAlk TALk TALK~~~
ah boy n max r da chatterbox-er. n loudspeaker as well. u noe y...keke
oh yea oh yea! sei almost 4got!
thr's a new preeettie gal too. bt too bad...she din join us in our lame talks bt...she's preettiee.i tink im goin after her (jeremy dun angry ya ^^)
our lecturer=ms linda. hmm...a chinese,medium hair,quite tan. am putting high hopeeeeess on her tat she'll teach us vry well (:

after tat, wat else do we do..
we M.A.K.A.N @ E.A.T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
our stomach is makin thunder sound T.T
we had our brunch at cafeteria as our legs do not want to walk so far due to an incurable illness namely - LAZYYYYY (:

makan liao, stomach full liao, burp liao, laugh liao, bein lame liao, we head to class (again! x_x).
tis time its MATH. n guess who has returned...
Mr. BALA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
duno i shud feel happy or bad x_x
a gud news anyway. AH BOY is appointed as our CFPI Foundation In Business IT, Intermediate Mathematics, Semester 2, A2 class, CLASS REP (:
wonder how gud he'll be. XD

all rite. class ended.
wei wei aka my lalat n i went to pyramid.
we walked Walked walked~~
to shopS..
wif one mission..
n tats important mission is...
To
Buy
A
Bag
For
Weiyi ^^
after touring nearly da whole mall, we end up wif SEED. white color, medium size. i :3 it :DDDDD
thx wei wei!!! i love u!!! ^^
*no pic(s) of da bag here coz agn, its due to an incurable illness called LAZYYYYY (:

fetch her bec n tot wud like to meet jeremy bt he's gt hooked onto sumtin.
tho i felt bad n dulan abt it, ntg much tat i can do.
so nvm...thr'll always be nxt time. (:

Im Backiee!!! :DD

wosh!!! another 1 more day will be 8 months anniversary for my dead blog. lolz. bt now, thx to someone's influence n to keep me awake, i finali decided to bring it to LIFE (n i mean it! x_x)~~

i nvr blog abt my 1st day in coll n blablabblablablah... bt fer now, jz wana post sumtin important. i am gonna..gonna..start my 2nd semester tml!!! believe it!!! darn..time flies. bt still, i am who i am. nvr change fer bad, jz gt crazier,lame-er,funnier n most important, more loving den ever~ XD

sigh..too many tings hav had hpn..it has bcum a nvr ending list...too much to blog abt. guess i hav to blog daily x_x

JEREMY CHUA,
my baby panda ^^ tis is da 4th time we gt bec togeta n am reali happy tat u stil luv me~ u all may say im egghead or jz pure moron bt I LOVE HIM n ntg else matter!!! if u hpn to read tis, jz to say tat....

Dun always dota lar...i noe u vry geng in gg. but dun bully me lar..
I jz noe how to use zeus n tiny..dun say me noob coz im IMBA XD
Bt seriously i reali noob de x_x

Fab Outing

wosh!
it has been days since da last time i update my blog.hehe.
now.
wat i wana write leh..hmm..
lets start wif 'Fab Outing' =)

i went to aunt's hse on..
er... *crackin my head to tink*
.
.
.
arsh! cant rmbr. dun care lar. ==
jz went thr to overnite for 1 day.
my bro,grandma n i went to her hse in da am.
had lunch at Fatty Mok Yong Taofu.
den went bec,rest,tv,dinner,slep.

kokkokkokkokkok~~
morning lu~ XD
wake up,wash up,bath.
after gao dim everytin,wait for aunt.
settle jor,go mamak to hav bfast.

full d,burp d,
my aunt bring my bro n i to mid valley to shop.
meanwhile,grandma n uncle went bec home.

reach mv about 11 ler.
since my bro havent buy his sko uni yet,so go jusco buy lu.
bt,thr no stock d so go to professor.
gosh.thr de uni damn expensive.
my aunt dun dare to buy coz ltr scare kena scold by mum.haha.
so,
go metrojaya.
yee.tot metrojaya vry expensive de wor bt it turn up nt.
so buy 4 pairs of uniform; Canggih.

den aunt ask "wana buy cny clothes?"
den i reply "erm..ok ar."
actuali i wana buy wif frens de bt since my aunt treat me soooooooo gud,i pun beli lu..
on da way to F.O.S, one of my bro's selipar sudenli torn. O.O
so how?!
aunt ask him to jz throw da selipar away n walk barefoot. O.O
n duno my bro noob or wat.
he jz left da torn-out selipar thr n walk wif another which is stil in gud condition. ==
when aunt saw tis, she tegur him. "I ask u to throw away both da selipars.nt left da spoilt wan on da flr~~"
wif such embarassing face,he went to pick up da selipar n throw both away.
so kaki ayam jor.
haha.
v walk into many shops jz to find da right selipar for him.
go Esarli lar,Vad&Vid lar, Primavera lar, Metrojaya lar..
all oso dun hav his size.
so v kostan bec to jusco.
finali, v found one.
Larrie de.
haiz.
tis part is funny.
when da salesboy ask him to try on da selipars, he keep lookin 4 da shoes my bro's wearing(b4 wana buy shoes lar). den he wonder. 'eh! how come no shoes watsoeva wan?!'
den my aunt said, "his shoes spoil d. so jz gimme da shoebox"
den da guy was like blur jor. haha.
u shud've seen my bro.
owiz mengelak fr ppl.haha.scare ppl look at his foot. lol.
my aunt told him, "har.nxt time c u stil wana wear torn-out shoes onot" XD
pity my bro....

done wif da shoe lar.
nxt stop - F.O.S.
bought a jean n 4 tops.
den went to Reject Shop.
after tat,went to La Senza.
ahh~~ tis is da part y i named tis blog - Fab Outing. =D

da 3 of us went in thr.
of coz, my bro din buy lar.
sot meh..kids go La Senza buy lingerie. XD
so jz my aunt n i.
when we're waitin 4 our turn outside da fittin room, i saw tis couple.
da woman wore a red blouse,wif belt clunchin her waist n legging.
da climax, haha, is wat my bro told me. coz i went in da fittin room d.
she wana try 4 a robe.
her bf ask him to jz wait for her turn since all da fittin rooms r occupied.
she refused. said try here oso can wan ma O.O
"duwan lar..thr're so many ppl here."
"nvm wan lar."
so, unbuckle her belt, took off her blouse n legging. OMG
jz left her undergarment. O.O
without feelin embarrass, she jz wear da robe. aiya.wrong size.try another wan. yee. correct size wor.oklar buy tis wan. WTF.
i reali tabik tis woman. da face reali like onion. tak tau malu wan.
c'mon lar..tis is public leh. wana try den jz wait 4 ur turn lar. aiyo.
all da salesgal oso look at her man.
nt ni them,da ppl outside too.
sigh.
how i reali reali wish i was thr.
i record da whole ting n upload at youtube d. XD
thr's tis chinese saying - One kind of rice eaten can born out many kinds of ppl.
true eh..
haha.

finix shoppin d, went to Yoyo Snack.
nt bad wor.
ppl, try da Fish Fillet Burger.
nice! ^^

wif all da plastic bags, da feelin of dying,
v head to da parking lot.
lets call it a day.
sit inside da car jor,waa~~ wat a relief.
reach home tat time oso quite late d.
nearly 6pm.
imagine how much time we've spent thr.
hehe.

wait 4 my mum to fetch my bro n i bec home.
v dinner togeta.
at tat time, i dun reali hav any appetite.
jz feel lyk goin bec home n slep on my cosy bed.

finali,
HOME SWEET HOME! hoho..
wat i did,
i cant rmbr. ==
sei lor..am i havin Alzhimer's?
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bt i do hav a weak memory nowadays. =(

22.12.2008 =D

another day,
another outing =)

my day unfolds wif me strugglin to get up fr my comfortable,cosy bed (well,im a slut XD).
i set da alarm to 8.30am n as usual,i jz shut it off n bec to my pillow.
sudenli,i feel lyk 'sumtin' is waking me up.
its nt my mum.
neither its my bro.
n yet,its nt my grandma.
n of coz,its nt my dad.
honestly,at times when i cant wake up on time,i reali feel lyk thr's 'sumtin' or 'sum1' callin me. n da nxt ting i noe,im already awake n wont gt bec to slep. weird huh? yea. i reali wonder wat or who izit. bt da ques remained unanswered. geez..lyk supernatural pulak. haha.

its nearly 11am.
quickly,i went to da bathroom n settle my business thr.
im suppose to meet elyn at 12.30 bt she's gt gastric in da 11th hour.
i gt panic.
luckily,mie qi text askin me wana go gai gai onot..at tat particular moment,i reali reali reali THANK GOD man! wosh!
mie qi is reali my saviour.
elyn had made da reservation for Beverly Hills Chihuahua n im suppose to collect da tickets 45mins b4 da showtime - 1.40pm.
bt,as wat ppl say "once ur lucky,n u wont be tat lucky nxt time".
n hell yea,its true.
when my dad wana fetch me to pavilion,he said da road tax has expired =.=
so cant drive car lor.
so borrow my uncle's van.
bt,while on my way to pudu, da front tyre gt prob =.=
bullshit lar.
so,send it to my dad's workshop.
at tat time, i tot 'y now? y now?! so damn sui wan neh!' sigh.
den borrow one of dad's worker's car n send me to pavilion.
sampai pudu, traffic jam like hell.
took me long enuf to reach my destination.

when i finali landed my foot on da land of pavilion,im relieved.
mie qi is waitin for me at The Coffee Bean bt i cant rmbr whr izit. gosh.
i jz went thr twice lar.
mana ingat.
so i tour around pav n when i finali found da floor directory board, my mind went blank.
i duno wat da hell im lookin at. =.=
took me long enuf to digest da info i received.
eventually,i gt ntg.
so ask ppl lor.
n da f***est ting is da cafe is jz located at da same floor im at. swt. its at da other side of da entrance.
found mie qi n we head to mng.
bought 1 jean n 1 shirt.

den,we walked into Forever 21.
omg.
im spoilt 4 so many choices man!
be it da garments or accessories; reali captivating!
i wanted to buy everytin tat i've set my eyes on bt,scare nt enuf money ler..=( coz im buyin a book ltr n i've spend much at mng. nvm. i berazam,bertekad to go thr agn on some other day.hehe.

after Forever 21, we head to Pull and Bear, Roxy,Topshop Topman.
tel u guys.
two thumbs up for Pull and Bear =D
n for Topshop Topman, i reali luv da check shirts eh..
i jz found tat tis shop offers reali reali nice check shirts.
on my nxt outing, i reali gona shop 4 check shirts at TT. keke.

den we walked to Lot 10.
mie qi said she wana try da Jackie Chan's cafe.
reach thr,reali disappoint me.
it written thr 'Jackie Chan's cafe Coffec & Tea'
so cant EAT lor.
haiz.
bt da place reali nice. da sittin place is special.
so, went to times square's gasoline.
hav nt been thr 4 quite some time ler.

at gasoline,
thr're many ppl thr.
ppl mountain ppl sea. XD
luckily,we gt a seat.
bt hor,da service reali bad man.
da waiter lyk noob jiang.
den thr's one couple on our right-hand side.
duno wat hpn,they shifted to a booth behind us.
sudenli,mie qi 'ssuhhh' me.
n im like 'wat?'
she urge me to look behind n i saw da couple kissing.nt jz a simple kiss bt french kiss.
omg.
hou sam lar,its public lar.
wana ta k lun go find a place tats nt so crowded.
soon after tat, da guy or shud i say da hamsap bf, go rub his gf's private part for like 3-4 times. =.=" wtf!
as im havin my back facin them,i cant c da whole scene.bt mie qi can.so she told me everting.
bt da rubbing part,reali disgusting lar.
gosh.
da gal,fr her apperance,i can guess tat she's jz 14 or 15. haiz.
so young d wat.
nt to say im close-minded bt plz lar..wana do tis kind of ting,make sure ppl dun c wat ur doin.

enuf of tat.
we had our food n technically,v managed to make a joke out of da 'free show' we're watchin jz now. XD
wat a enjoyable day. haha.

stomach full jor,burp jor, we went down to Borders.
bought a book on Business Management.
thr's one abt Sales n as i read on,i reali cant put da book down.
when i look at da price, wow, cant buy lar =(
agn,i've to wait 4 another xxxx days..haiz.

took da escalator to ground flr. as mie qi wanted to buy clothes fr mng.
unfortunately,da shop has been replaced by Black Queen.
aww...
pity her.
ts reali change alot d.
tis shows how long i've nt been thr. hehe.
much to her disappointment, i comfort her, "aiyo,nvm.wed v go The Gardens n mv.hehe"
n she jz cheer up =)
its d 7pm so v decided to go home.

i took da lrt.
sei yeh ar, no air-cond!
my god!
thr're so many ppl inside n its damn hot n stuffy. =.=
y at tis hour,da lrt owiz litis de..haiz.

reach bt.jalil lrt,
dad fetch me home,
went out 4 dinner wif aunt,
bec home,
watch tv,
clean myself up,
on9,
sms.
haha..