15.10.2010
Marks da day whr we screw enl test 1 gao gao. haha..can we score???? DEFINITELY!! (5/10%) hehe. After enl 207, i wont place high hope for tis one. So long i can secure a B, tats more den enuf~ (:
Jz FYI, tis lil bloggie, i'll shower it wif melancholic posts. yea. its time for some changes tho =]
but! wheneva necessary, i'll stil update u guys wif some happie posts (:
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These two days, i've been feeling quite down. All da laughters n stupid acts from me, are jz camouflage of wat im feelin deep inside.
These two days, i duno wat reali hpn. Izit me thinking too muchie or izit tings hav changed? I somehow felt thr's slight change on da way u treat me~ nt jz me even others felt da same way. The Q WHY keeps popping out in my head. I've tried settled down n tink it thru thoroughly bt i cant seem to find da rite answer. I admit, I admit its my fault bt im jz playin..i din do it on purpose. Even so, i seriously dun tink its my mistake. I do not tease for no reason. Its for ur own good too..haiz.. Mayb, mayb i do hurt ur feeling bt i've apologized. Sincerely. Somehow, even a sincered 'sorry' cant cure all wounds; jz like da sayin, "No use cryin over split milk". Wat else can i do? I reali duno~
Thursday - 14.10.2010
Arrived home, feelin slightly better~ (:
Had a drink to soothe my gloominess...
(cont) 15.10.2010
Tho feelin a lil tired, am all geared up to face da day wif sunshine mood; coz i believe today will nt be any typical day (: somehow, thr's jz sometin tat turn me off == nvm. small matter. fuck it. I duno y i even bothered so much. Zzzzzz...
Rite after innovation class, head straight to library. Everytin is okie til i felt sumtin is nt rite abt my stomach...n hell yea it does. Went to loo to settle everytin..shoot it took so damn long -.-
Then...ah. Emo part came up.
(im nt gonna tel u wat izit abt =P) Seriously, i NEVER tot i'll fall so damn hard. It literally strikes my heart da moment i saw ............ n da moment i said she's ............. It reali hit me hard. For wat reason, i wish i noe y. I tot i can forget bt da scene keep rolling in my head amid da test. I lose focus. At one point, i even feel like putting down my pen n walk out without finishing da whole paper. Im reali so close to sobbing bt i held bec. Grasping my pen so hard, i told myself i cant screw tis paper. Not english. After few mins of struggles, am managed to gt bec on track.... ): Hope i wont gt a farkdup result. Am jz not in da rite state of mind to do da best. Nevertheless, i've gave it all n jz hope i wont gt a kiam cai result..
On da way bec, i tink abt ntg bt da whole scene. Again. == Darn...imma pathetic lil gal... Y do i even giv a farking care???? Its nt abt me, its nt sumtin i should noe, its nt sumtin im concern abt... So y im feelin so down??? No one even cares abt my feelin. So y im feelin such a busybody myself? Zzzzzzzz... Shed tears sumore. Haiz....Guess im nt tat tough after all ):
Nvm. Let bygone be bygone~ Gonna recover soon i guess. *crossfinger*
