This is the day i'll rmbr most in my life; for i've done a huge, enormous mistake...
Time:: 8pm.
Activity:: Dinner wif Z at Grill King (puchong). Everyting seems okie til the point Z mentioned stuff abt P. Upon hearing tat, Im down. Completely. I did not show out at 1st bt as time goes on, it jz got into me n out of a sudden, my temper arise. I felt upset. Thr's tis one ting in life tat i reali HATE MOST - just tel me straight to the face if u dislike/dissatisfied wif wat I did. I dun like to noe fr 3rd parties. Even if tat matter hurts me, its nt up for u to decide. I'll change if i feel i nid to. I can take it. U may say im childish, bt tis is a fact. Im tat kind of person. I'll rather opt for honesty tho it might hurts me...
:: I promised Z not to tel P abt it, bt eventually i did. I noe i made a big mistake here, for breaking up our promises. Im reali sorry, other den sorry i duno wat else shud i say. I do not noe it turned out tis way. The reason i told him was, i jz wan an answer. I feel so upset. It jz hurts me much.. I admit in findin tat answer, i betrayed our promises. Im sorry. I've chosen to be selfish in tis matter. I did not even tink of da consequences. Again, Z, im reali sorry...sorry... I hope tis wont ruin our frenship....i reali hope so...
:: If I'd chosen to be silent in da 1st place, tis wont happen. No one to blamed on except for myself. Serves me rite for wat had happened. I hate a part of me whr wheneva someone i care most did something wrong towards me, da only ting i can tink of is - CONFRONT. I din reali tink of da consequences. I tried to forget everyting bt i cant. It keeps on playin in my head. It makes me suffer....
:: Never b4 i felt so upset for a fren. I guess tis fren jz matters to me alot. Given da same situation bt diff ppl, I might choose nt to confront. I might be able to get over it. Nevertheless, wat happened had happened. For now, I cant do anyting except to wait for Z to forgive me. For now, P owed me explanations. For tis time round, Im da bad gal...
:: I nearly had insomnia. Depression leads to insomnia, tats wat most ppl said. Now i blif it...
:: Z, i never meant to ruin ur frenship wif P. Swear to God, nt even for one sec i hav such thought. Plz forgive me..
:: P, i hope u can b honest to me... Again, Im da one who insist Z to tel me in da 1st place. Dun blame him...
Guys, sincerely fr my heart, IM SORRY. IM REALI SORRY..
