Date:: 28 Oct 2011
- Woke up late for 8am class. Again. Tat's so me ==" Force myself to wake up n get ready to coll tho i know i wont make it. While on my way, a super bad news hit me. "You have been absence 7 times". 7 times!!!!!!!!!???? OMG!! I almost gt barred for Retail Mktg...! Darn.. Never once in my life I skip more than 5 times for a class. This is so friggin suprising.. Immediately came to my senses; fully awake upon receiving da news. From now onwards, I shall set 15 alarms (my current 6 aint helpin ==) to wake myself up. Or... A better solution. Overnite at JieYing's place. She's diligent n wont skip class. Aaaahhh.. 我的救星~ hahahaha. See im clever :P
Promised myself to attend every single class til end of sem. Hopefully i can do it =]
- Am all gear up to hit da gym today but.... "Sorry. Empire Fitness First will resume business on 15th November". Another darn.. Haiz.... Boh mood liao..
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--True Feelings--
Its been almost a month since the day u left.
You left without a single goodbye.
Made me drown in solemness..
No one actually knows how much i suffered back then.
Unable to voice out my sadness, so torturing i burst out crying unconsciously.
A sudden text from u in middle of the night.
Totally enlightened me n i can feel my heart aint aching tat much anymore.
Mayb i'd finally get to talk to u.
Now, i can slowly move on..
For this entire 30+ days, i try very hard to escape from this loneliness.
I can slowly c da light ahead of da roughly road im walking on.
I've gt support from ma best frens. Pure awesome frens (:
Having them around, my burden is easing; i smile more; i laugh more; im..happy =]
One told me, in order to forget da person u like so much, u gotta break da bonds between both of u.
I decided to do so but i jz cant. I cant afford to do it. Im nt strong enuf..
In da end, da weaker side of me conquers me.
I...
Have feelings for him. Once again.....
Many told me im tough. U're wrong. Physically i am bt mentally im not.
Reality has slapped me countless times, asking me to wake up.
Wat i did to counter?
Nothing.
Wounds r growing; Scars getting bigger;
I'd rather grow in pain than erasing u from my life.
How pathetic...
Im following the road with no end..
Wandering around..
I live da life of a fool.
Someone.
Pls..guide me back on track.
Its been a darn one and a half year.
I duwan to continue tis..
Let me feel da love of love..
Let me feel appreciated..
Let me be da one for u..
You, the guy im writing about.
You'd dedicated Christina Perri's A Thousand Years for her.
This proves how strong your love for her.
I noe i cant fit in anywhere..
And so i chose to be bystander..
But for how long....
