a space between black n white

at times, i wonder how can i lead a peaceful life...

a kingdom whr no ones suffer..
a kingdom w/o pollution..
a kingdom whr every1's friendly..
a kingdom whr no one dies...

tat wont ever hpn in real life.
its jz an imagination..fantasy..

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a space between black n white..

tats whr i live.
tats whr i belong.
tats whr i bcum who i am 2day.
tats whr i accomplish my missions,my goals..
tats whr i pour my luv to every1 i cherish. N..
tats whr i made mistakes.

-recently, duno y, i found myself doin quite alot of mistakes.
as a gal tat d hav sum1 in heart,i cant lyk another guy. previously when im wif him,i wont hav a crush on others.i vry loyal de.after breaking up,i stil lyk him tat much. bt when gt bec 2geta,everytin's reversed. at 1st da feeling 4 him is stil da same as b4; i luv him wif all my heart. bt as time goes on, da luv's fadin away. its totally diff fr b4. i dun blame his for tis. its my own fault. he gotta giv full attention in studies n i fully und tat. bt no matter how busy a person is,if he gt da will,he'll send u a msg a day.even though its a short wan. nearly everytime im da 1 who reply alot n wat he gave me as ans kinda disappoint me. i feel bored wif tis kind of situation. u may say im a immature gal.n i tel u i admit to tat statement. n wif tat, i started to lyk a guy. when he 1st show up,i dun giv a damn abt it. bt after wat my best buddy has told me abt him, i started to notice him. it jz hpn so fast. day by day, da feeling for him grew fr as small as an ant to as large as an elephant. (duno y i choose elephant.hehe) i noe 4 sure tat i wont hav a chance 2 b wif him.chances are thr bt its jz me who's afraid to giv it a shot. i dun go after guys. say me ego ba..haha. so,i jz let it be. can see him fr far i oso satisfy jor. a person canot be greedy de =) for now, im jz gona put my heart to studies. after tat f spm ni man man tink abt gettin a bf..a gud wan. lol.

its 5.15pm.wana take bath coz goin mv later to buy da damn shoes 4 graduation. my blog wont stop here. thr'll b more......

no idea wat to put as title...-.-

aiya..
was da 1st word i uttered when i was thinkin wat to write.
haiz..so boring lar..din go skol 2day coz wake up late.jz bro goin..
actuali i can make it de jz..1 word LAZY. hehe..ditch skol for 4x d.
feel kinda bad sometimes bt skol's so boring..nt to say tat im a lone ranger. jz da environment sux.den da teachers tengok pun muka sudah muak plus, gt extra class sumore.skol ends at 1.45.
so my choice to stay at home is da best. even my dearest mummy oso din say anyting so mai ponteng lu..

tml's graduation day.
gosh..havent iron my shirt yet.
dun say iron sin shoes oso havent buy. -.-
hopefully mac can accompany me go mv buy ler....sob. lidat gotta pray hard d. XD

yday was da best day ever..
coz..
i finali can on9 d! congrats me!! XD (tis weiyi sot jor)
yeama..3months w/0 comp u noe..
feel lyk dying. bt luckily my dearest companion of life - my w810i doesnt pokai yet. if not i reali wil fat mou. now sudenli tink can a person bcum fat mou?? haha..definitely not lar..sometimes i reali nonsense. hav stupid thoughts. not ni tat i too lyk to imagine tings~~ lotsa tings~~ ngehehehehheheh... ppl wif wide imagination ni gud ar..tink outside da box..
bt hor tink too much oso nt gud eh.. so how to bcum a usefull yet clever human being neh?
hmm...................

tis few days thr're somebody who reali make me hapi. duwan mention who sin. hehe..
1st, my best buddy.
2nd, my buddy.

Its time to reveal who's behind the sceen...

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MY BEST BUDDY: kin wei!!! ^^

-he's reali a gud fren..owiz thr when i wanted to find sum1 to talk to. i've know him since f3. tuit 2geta. tho v chat alot in sms bt in reality, its reversed. funny huh? my luv problems,all oso he noe de. giv him dig all liao.zha oso boh jor. XD he's lyk my bro. sum1 i can count on. i wonder wil my life stil be in tis way if he's gone? no, i guess..hmm...

MY BUDDY: park leng!! ^^

-he's another gud fren of mine...my frens all oso gud wan..if not y wud i be fren wif them? not logic rite? XD fr da way we chat,we're lyk couple. cant show here. P&C. hehe..reali fun ar play tis kind of ting. at least i stil can feel da feeling of being owned by a guy. tho i've a bf now, i cant reali feel da luv he's giving me tis time. reali sorry to say tat.. a whole long story if i wana explain wat reali hpn.

-28/10: went to secret recipe wif him. tats da very 1st time we actuali chat wif each other. it has been lyk 7 yrs since i 1st know him. such a long frenship bt in between, we lost contact. bt thx to jacky, we've found bec each other. i say til lyk i finally met wif my long lost bro jiang. haha.. its nice to hav him around.reali. =)

i stil gt lotsa ting to write de. bt im in a blur mode rite now. yday sleep at 3sumtin tis morning 7 d wake up. jz now do maths revision oso abit blur liao. wana slep awhile sin...zzzzzzz