A Wall Between Two Gardens

tel me.
wats sadness?
da opp of hapiness?
i assume sadness is a wall between two gardens. it brings us down n causes commotion at times. da easiest way to symbolise sadness is black color.for me.
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today, i finali found da courage to confess to a guy tat i like.
tis is da 1st time.
im scare tat he'll jz tel me 'i dun like u' straight away.
luckily,ting goes on quite well.

i text him,saying tat i've feelings 4 him.im well-prepared if he dun accept me.
n da sad part is, he's best of alone.nt a kind tat can last n hav a relationship.
i und tis.den i ask y cant he hav a relationship.
he said he tend to break promises,lie,a flower heart person,bad personality,nt a caring n lovin person.
when i read tat msg,im stunt.feelin lyk da two pairs of ribcage are clamping my lungs vry tightly.
im jz speechless.
i kind of expected thr wont b anytin between me n him besides fren bt wat he told me reali unbelievable.
coz he doenst seem lidat to me. lyk my fren said, "u hav more to noe abt him". he's totally rite.
it hurts of coz. im sad of coz. da worst of all, i've to pretend im not. haiz.
for now,i wont drop a single tears. life has to go on. wont let tis ting control my mind. jz stand up on my own n lead a happier life. tink i've found some1 bt it turns out not. =(